I AM NOT WHAT I AM....

I never really understand why sometimes people keep gushing and pushing us to do something that we don wanna do... When we want to speak people said shuttup!!!!!!!!! and we shut the hell up they asked us to say somethin..@#@$$$@!!! but nevertheless we just smile our most cute-angelic-develish-shitty smile and said "never mind go on without me" but in our mind we would said" hey you motherfuckin' make your shitty minds up and quit buggin when i'm tryin to say somethin!! yah piece of shittt...... ARGGGHHHHHHH seein ur face makes me wanna kick ur ass!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

But reality its too great....they snap us out of our imagination and pull us back to gravity...Seriously when we said whats on our mind they will start to cry and gasp,suddenly running away like in some hindhustand movie or somethin.... Good god.. hello!!! nobody's gonna tore after you.... Question: WHAT HAPPEN TO SHARING IS CARING??? well we share our thoughts with him or her and it shows that we care about them..... i never really get it... If we put up our fake face and let them do anything they pleased and we...WE.. end up in misreable!!!!!!!! WELL thats a real hypocrite people.

I AM NOT WHAT I AM is an adaption from othello by shakespear line from othello himself....
whats who's shakespear?? he's the gay guy that can write poems and dramas...
Still dunno who he is??? he's the guy that wrote ROMEO AND JULIET... okey got it ...
all his piece are mere magic and seriously spectacular...(if you can read old english) Othello is all about a knight in venice running a barons' daughter... they get married.. have some conflics....some killing parts and the ending... Interesting story...

Okay now back to the topic!!!!!!!! for the sake of names,family and face we have to push our pride away and start acting like a dummy... when people ask us to do something that we don't like we would zip our lips and do it without questioning anything... but in our head vice versa...
however credit is given to people like these... your patience must be high and you must be a really good actor or actress since you can do lots of different expressions in shocking times..
but if you refuse..... now,that's a problem... when we refuse they will start staring at us boldly to make us feel guilty.. At this point some of us will break and said "nevermind i'll do it..."
in our heart... GOD DAMMIT ME AND MY BIGMOUTH well that's true..

There are some ways to avoid these kind of guilty... at these rate please use the eastern ways of avoiding unecessary problems......

1) Start by appoligising and tell him/her why you don wanna help her... or make up some excusses..(GOOD ONES AND NOT STUPIDS ONE) but keep your face cool...

2) If she/he start staring at you like their eyeball gonna pop out....... make stupid- blur -face that you ever had and ask that person are you okay you look like you have seen a ghost... She will realise that u are a bubble-headed person that don't understand facial signal and leave you off

3) if that dosen't work.... well running away is not a good choice but if you can't stand that person just make horror face infront of them and start saying " arghhh my homework tak siap lagiiii"......
and start running away like a lunatique....

But please people method no 3 is only when you are desperate... and this is the most polite-sensible excusses that i have ever use... for personal choice i like method no 2... heheheheheh

i also would like to give out warning to those people whom like to follow other peoples request and not yourss... When you do these you might end up stuck in ur problem or you attitude might change overall. usually from positive to negative as a sign that you have been reborn again...
I love these kind of people because of their courage but please make sure you show off your skills in perfect timing... or people will think you are cuucoo....
When people ask you 'what happen????????? you use to be soo obedient and quiet" "do you have problems!!! did you get dumped by someone??? or my poor you...."

well just smiled and said "I AM NOT WHAT I AM" but when you guys are transform into another side of you , ask yourself are you happy or not?? if you are not stop being a winnie and find your own self... I KNow that a journey to find yourself its hard and it takes time , but if you want to save yourself we gotta take the first step..

WHAT???WHO'S THIS PERSON THAT KEEPS ON SAYING ABOUT PERSONALITY SPLIT AS IF SHE KNOWS EVERYTHING!!!!!????????

the truth is i write these things because i have undergo personality split..... at first its a bit scary but i am satisfied with myself, and my confidence increase...now i will surprise the world with my very own personalia and feel good about it.. I AM NOT WHAT I AM......

question: life should be hard..?! answer: if you only think its like that...

"Shh...Listen carefully,can you hear it? Can you feel it? Let me described it to you one more time,listen carefully". We are at a Lavander field now,soft and beautiful purple colour of the flower streched as far as the eyes can see.T he flowers sways delicately and harmonically following the gentle yet refreshing breeze.Thousands of flowers with the exact time dance gracefully in the wind,its like an ocean of peaceful purple flowers.The breeze is warm and welcoming,it rushes upon our skin gently that it freshen us up almost immediately.

The breeze carries the flower scent as well,the soft sweet smell calms our mind and put us in comfort,the sound of the breeze is like a lullaby sang by a maiden.The atmosphere is tranquil and the scenary is breathtaking,Its like heaven on earth with its shady weather,you can hear birds chirping happily together,animals chasing each other.You can feel the small soft petals of the lavander,it is an absolute sheer magic,the wind continously blowing.THE SUNLIGHT THAT SHINES DELICATELY,the beautiful oceanic like skies, with white pure cotton candies like clouds.The vast and haven colours of the floers.Its beauty is too great that words are not enough for it...

'What.. you can feel it now,you can hear it now,you can see it." "Good,go on,keep the imagination run wild and let fantasy take over us"